I should have expected it. Last week I boldly proclaimed to the world how thankful I am. How thankful I am for my lively mess of a family and the perfectly imperfect. Why should it surprise me that Monday morning I’d be hit on all sides with utter chaos: squalling siblings, mouthy teens, and a maniacal 2 year old terrorist. I was attacked full force from every direction. And man, I fell right smack off my thankful mountain. I know that’s real life: highs and lows and not-so-pretty-or-poetic emotions. BUT GOD. Oh how thankful I am that God doesn’t turn His back on me every time I fail. And that His goodness is not contingent on my faithfulness. WHAT A MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE!
But when all is said and done, He gives me the grace to get back up when I fall on my face. I get to tell my kids I’m sorry and we all get a do-over. New mercies every morning. And every week.
I am thankful:
~ for more end of school fun. Our final FINAL day of school was Wednesday! It is surreal to see Sawyer completing his first year of school. I don’t take these “firsts and lasts” for granted. Every time he reaches another milestone, I never fail to see that frail, white little baby. BUT GOD! He knew this day was coming even when all we could see was death in every direction. Thank you Jesus for the last five years! And we will be thankful for all the rest you will give us! I pray Sawyer lives to be a strong, healthy, old old man who never tires of telling the story of how Jesus healed-ed him.
~ for nail polish remover. I used a whole bottle to clean up Tatum K and the carpet where she painted her “Pretty toes Mama! I MESSY!”
~ for my 2 kiddos recognized for Perfect Attendance! Way to go Kora and Gavin!
~for the remarkable kindness and generosity of friends.
~ for good news. Our friend Mason got his port removed after completing leukemia treatment, Baby Lucas got wonderful news from his oncologist, and sweet Georgia is home from her latest stay in the hospital. God, You are so good. Thank you, faithful prayer warriors, for praying; please keep lifting up all these precious families.
~ for at least a couple lazy days. No alarms to set, no plans on the calendar. We enjoyed our walks, kids swam in the icy pool until their lips turn blue, and we laughed as Bear eagerly dove in after them, showing off his swimming skills.
~for Carson Grace and the Cougars safe trip down to Houston for their next softball playoff game. They battled through and played their best, but this time didn’t come away with the win. But what a great season!
~ for the way all my kids love music. They are always singing along with the radio behind me in the car, making up songs, or singing on their own at home. This week a favorite came on, “I’m a Child of God,” and Sawyer said, “Mama! I just love this song so much! I just HAVE to Praise Him!” I can only imagine how this blesses the Father’s heart.
~ for the eagerly anticipated, fast and furious arrival of my latest BEAUTIFUL NIECE, Josey Dean! What a little sugar!!!
And Saturday was the biggest day; a day of so much joy but also bittersweet tears. My girl, my Carson Grace, my heart. How can my baby be graduating high school? I remember picking out her first day of school clothes from the toddler department. I remember the tiny wooden stool that her teacher had built for her because her little legs dangled from the desk and couldn’t reach the floor. I remember crying as she graduated from Kindergarten, then from 5th grade, then 8th. I blinked. Tiny crocs and Mary Jane’s were replaced by Vans and impossibly high heels. My memory hasn’t faded from her baby days, because all I have to do is look at Tatum K, her carbon copy. Saturday, my beautiful girl put on that cap and gown and proudly received her diploma. She fought for it: high school wasn’t easy for her on any level. But she did it, and we are so proud. We even had the excitement of a tornado warning and mandatory evacuation in the middle of the ceremony, but she made it! We ended the evening with burgers and watermelon and friends crowded in the kitchen, celebrating our girl.
~ and then a wonderful baby shower for my precious friends Chris and Lindsay, as they prepare their hearts and home for their baby boy on the way. They are such treasures, and I am so ready to watch them step into the role they were MADE FOR as Mama and Daddy!
As you may well imagine, it’s slightly terrifying to face being home with all these kiddos for the summer. I’m so ridiculously outnumbered. But thankfully they haven’t figured that out yet. I am trying to find a balance between high hopes and realistic expectations for the upcoming weeks: lots of swimming, walks, trips to the library, and some good healthy brain exercise. We’re gonna eat popsicles and ride bikes and Cooper’s going to teach me how to flip on the trampoline. And I’m gonna love my babies the very best I can. I’m gonna soak up these last precious weeks of having Carson Grace home before she leaves for college. I’m going to press into Jesus. I’m going to pray with my kids and play with my kids. I’M GONNA FINISH SCRAPING THOSE BEAMS. It’s going to be a glorious mess, but we are going to do it together.
Thank you for giving thanks with me.
“Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the whole world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.” Psalm 90:1-2
“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us, for as many years as we have seen trouble. May your deeds be shown to your servants, your splendor to their children. May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us— yes, establish the work of our hands.” Psalm 90:14-17
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26
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God BLESS you….you are Amazing… Praise the Lord
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Takes one to know one my dear!! Love to you!
Sounds like a great life and wonderful plans! Wondering if you should rethink learning flips on the trampoline!!??
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Maybe? But what an accomplishment!? We’ll see if I chicken out. To be continued…
Congratulations to Carson Grace and to you as her parents. I look forward to seeing your family every week and am so thankful to stay connected to you through this. I think of you all so very often.
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You’re so sweet Mandy! Thanks for following along!