~ for the most surprisingly simple way to bring joy to my children and instantly elevate my mom status to superhero. I wish someone had told me sooner: all I have to do is pick my kids up from school blasting the soundtrack from “The Greatest Showman.” You would have thought I had delivered ice cream and puppies for all! They sparkled and sang and clapped all the way home! It was GLORIOUS! Sawyer even said, “When I grow up and get married and have children, I want this to be the FIRST movie they watch. Cuz I just love it so much.” There really is something magic about that movie.
~ for the refreshingly crisp drop in temperatures. It actually feels like fall, even for Texas.
~ for a delicious feast of zesty fried gulf shrimp and fries from our favorite little secret local spot.
~ for one more successful door-slamming tooth pull. Love that proud toothless grin!
~ for a productive Giddyup & Whoa week. Lots of new designs getting cranked out and delivered. One sweet lady was so tickled with her sign she asked if she could hug me! So awesome to have the privilege to create something special for someone’s home. Plenty more work to do to get ready for the Barn Sale in a week and a half!
~ for a full week of GCS Homecoming festivities. Sam and Kora enjoyed dressing up for their first Spirit Week in Middle School (and of course I didn’t get a single picture). Littles enjoyed Crazy Sock Day. In between painting signs, I was up to my eyeballs in hot glue and ribbon to make a Homecoming mum, and Cooper enjoyed the pep rally, football game, and Homecoming dance.
~ for a fun day spent visiting with a dear sister that I have missed dearly.
~ for a long overdue trip for the Tribe to the dentist, which amazingly yielded zero cavities!
~ for a great afternoon for Josh and Colton who worked together to build a reclaimed wood coffee table and 2 end tables for his new house. (Again, NO PICTURES!!! I’m really off my game this week!) But really, I’m thankful for the tremendous blessing of a renewed and refreshed relationship with Colton. We’ve been through some really rough, painful seasons, and there was a season when none of us desired to spend much time together. It’s just so awesome that now we value each other so much, and he CHOSES to call and/or come over ALMOST EVERY DAY! What a gift! Glory to the Lord!
~ for the blessing of being back in physical church. As much as it stirs up my anxieties, it is a such a blessing to be in my church home building, surrounded by believers that I know and love, raising our voices together and receiving the word of God. Even if it looks like this…
~ for the kids favorite Sunday afternoon comfort food: pigs in a blanket.
~ for the sweetest toothless baking assistant of all time.
I’m very late posting due to a VERY LONG EVENING. (I guess it’s more of a Monday Gratitude this week). Can I just make a revolutionary observation?
Parenting is HARD.
That is all.
P.S. BUT GOD. I am thankful for new mercies every morning, and that His love never fails, it never gives up, and never runs out on me. And I’m thankful that while I know I have a very important job to do, at the end of the day, God is God and I am not. Glory hallelujah.
Thanks for giving thanks with me.
“The LORD will perfect that which concerns me; Your mercy, O LORD, endures forever; Do not forsake the works of Your hands.” (Psalms 138:8)
“being confident of this very thing, that He who has begun a good work in you will complete it until the day of Jesus Christ;” (Philippians 1:6)
“‘Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God’s.” 2 Chronicles 20:15
~ for a GOLDEN start to the month! Custom license plates in. ✔️
Go GOLD window clings✔️
Wreath and yard sign up✔️
Gold swag for the Tribe✔️
Bling bling mask✔️
New mask and decals gifted from another cancer mom ✔️
So very blessed by seeing how many people have changed their profile and Gone Gold In various ways, both locally and across the nation. And the INCREDIBLE HISTORICAL MILESTONE – the official national proclamation naming September Childhood Cancer Awareness Month, and the FIRST TIME EVER lighting of the White House GOLD!!!!! Childhood cancer advocates have been begging for this show of support for YEARS, and to FINALLY see our precious children honored in this was a truly monumental victory.
Please consider Going Gold by registering for Virtual Tyler Gold Run. Just two weeks left to register. You can run or walk anytime, wherever you are. Or you can just consider it a donation to a great cause. When you support Gold Network of East Texas, you are truly making a difference in the lives of brave kids fighting cancer, and the valiant families supporting them. Click HERE to register.
~ for Sawyer to have the opportunity to have his Warrior buddy, Jase in the same 1st grade class this year. Jase was diagnosed with Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia in 2017, and is preparing to finish treatment NEXT MONTH!!! GLORY TO THE LORD!!! I love that these two brave boys have each other for support and encouragement. Well I had the opportunity to come to their classroom and ask the other students, “Did you know that you have TWO SUPERHEROES in your class?” I shared briefly that they were both cancer warriors, and the kids were all quite impressed. Then Sawyer and Jase passed out gold ribbons to wear, gold ribbon stickers, and “Go GOLD”fish crackers. So fun!
~ for some really fun and unique Giddyup & Whoa projects. We are so grateful for steady orders coming in. And grateful for good helpers!
~ for cute brothers who love to dress alike.
~ for Vogmask, our very favorite premium N99 masks that we have used since Sawyer was a baby. We have recommended them to other cancer families for years. As you can imagine, the pandemic has had a major impact on their business, and it has been hard for them to keep up with the increasing demand. Despite this challenge, Vogmask sent me a most generous shipment of masks to be donated to our Gold Network HERO kids! We have spoken with the company founder, and have officially made Vogmask the Official Mask of Gold Network of East Texas!
~ for our very favorite tangy and refreshing lemon icebox pie.
~ for a great weekend having Uncle Mike and Kenedy staying with us. And for one evening we had our whole bunch: the oldest two with each of their sweethearts, Cooper with a friend over, and all the Little people. It was loud and chaotic and loud and LOUD. But it was great.
~ and for the blessing of celebrating 21 years of marriage to my Love. This year was a far cry from last year’s Mexico getaway. It’s been a challenging season, one of sanding, of sacrifice, of bearing up under one another. For our marriage, it’s been a workboots and overalls year instead of a slacks and sequins year. Work. But I don’t mean that in a negative way at all! Work is not bad! Marriages are built and strengthened and anchored and fortified with WORK and SWEAT and calloused hands. I’m thankful that after 21 years, it doesn’t matter where we are or what we do…whatever it is, we are together. So very thankful.
And for a much needed reminder. That peace, “shalom,” is not the absence of strife or conflict. Instead the Hebrew word means fullness or completeness. I think about how often I find myself seeking “peace” in the wrong way, fleeing from something instead of coming to the Father and letting Him fill me. That peace that really does pass all understanding. Lord, may my FIRST RESPONSE to stress be to turn toward You instead of away. Not to try to numb or mask or cram full all the margins with STUFF, but leave breathing room BE STILL and fill my thirsty lungs with LIFE. Set a guard over my lips and let me listen twice as much as I talk. “He must become greater; I must become less.”” (John 3:30)
As always, I’m so grateful to anyone who takes the time to read these words. God opened this door for a purpose, and I pray I am able to stay out of the way enough for Him to be glorified. May we allow ourselves to drink deeply of His faithfulness, and be filled to overflowing with the fullness of His peace.
Thanks for giving thanks with me.
“Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is noble, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is admirable—if anything is excellent or praiseworthy—think about such things.” (Philippians 4:6-8)
I have to be honest and say that I still feel very alone. But I feel very surrounded by the Lord. He has wrapped me in so much kindness. I don’t feel like anyone can relate to my particular physical or emotional circumstances, but that’s ok. God knows me intimately, He loves me unfailingly, and He walks with me tirelessly.
Tiptoeing outside the quarantine bubble for the first time this week was very hard. Things were familiar and eerily unfamiliar at the same time. Faces of friends, parents, and teachers we have loved for years were now behind a mask or a face shield. Hallways were quieter than usual but still closer contact than we’ve had for months. BUT GOD.
We met and conquered each mountain. Sophomore Ipad training, 6th grade locker day and Middle School tour,5th grade locker day and Middle School tour, Elementary Meet the Teacher and supply drop off for grades 1, 3, and 4. Time after time in the middle of conversations, my raw emotions would rise up, and I could feel my muffled voice begin to quiver, and my eyes above my mask begin to well up with tears. And every time, my poorly concealed weakness was met with such kindness.
More than anything, what pushed me to move forward the most was the enthusiasm and complete lack of fear or reservation of all my kids. They were just straight up so excited to get back to school (and I am NOT entertaining the thought that any percentage of that excitement desire to get away from me.) All day Tuesday, Sawyer kept asking what time it was. “I want it to be bedtime, so I can go to bed and then when I wake up it will be SCHOOL!” They miss their friends. They miss their activities. They miss NORMAL. Don’t we all?
So we did all the things. Labeled all 7,463,726 supplies. Packed all the lunches (with surprise Lunchables). Hung out all the backpacks. Laid out the new clothes and shiny new tennis shoes and masks. Favorite Martha White blueberry muffins for breakfast.
I posted this picture on the first day of school. My friend Melissa from Laurel & Cotton had released her BOLD lion T-shirt design about a month ago, and I messaged her right away, “I want that one!” But the more I thought about it, the less bold I felt, and I couldn’t really imagine myself wearing the shirt. But suddenly I knew I DID need that shirt – for Sawyer. I don’t know anybody more bold than him.
So I ordered the BOLD lion shirt for Sawyer and “Overwhelmed by Jesus” for me. Never has their been a more appropriate pairing of shirts for an occasion as those two for the first day of school. (And for the record, when I showed Sawyer his new shirt, he was SO EXCITED about it, he chose it for his first day of school outfit without any prompting from me.)
I’m definitely ok but not ok. But it doesn’t matter if I am ok. God is FAITHFUL. He sees me as I really am: broken and held together with paper clips and chewing gum, and doesn’t turn away. I dropped off my babies (after we all had our foreheads scanned in the parking lot). And as we drove away, Tatum K patiently waited for me to stop bawling. She and I had a donut date at our favorite spot, and then we went to Home Depot to buy a new plant. Several thoughtful friends called and texted to check on me, which was so kind. Tater and I spent the day cuddling and crying and praying and watching the clock. I’ve never appreciated a quiet house less.
But when 3 o’clock FINALLY arrived, I’ve never been so ready to get my hands on my kids. They had all had a great day, and all shared every detail all at the same time. They told all their stories over cups of Andy’s Frozen Custard, and then they all washed and sanitized and changed clothes and got ready to do it all again the next day.
God was so faithful and kind to LOVE SO LAVISHLY this week.
~ Carson Grace had a great first week, acing a couple quizzes, auditioning for and MAKING the ETBU Chapel Praise Team, as well as being chosen for a paid position on the Worship team at Oakland Heights Baptist Church.
~ Colton is loving his new job and learning a TON. His business cards came in so he feels “official.” He came over this weekend before he heads back out of town for his next project. Grateful to be in this season where he is choosing to come spend time with us and share his life with us when he doesn’t HAVE to.
~ for the FINAL PIECE of the kitchen remodel: our light fixture that has been back-ordered since April. I had my heart set on it, and I’m so glad I waited. I love how it completes the kitchen transformation! Thankful it is DONE! (Now what project to start on next???)
~ for a restaurant-inspired recipe that I tried to recreate: roasted poblano peppers stuffed with creamy cheese, succulent shrimp, asparagus, and grilled corn. Not your grandma’s stuffed peppers. UNBELIEVABLE!
~ for the sweetest neighborhood kids (not just mine) who held a lemonade stand for charity, and chose to donate to Gold Network! They sat in the sweltering heat and even went door to door to invite “customers” (vital since we all live at THE VERY END of a DEAD END street!) And then my sweet neighbor sat with them and gave them a lesson an stewardship and accountability when raising money for a charity, and the kids all prayed over the money before they counted it. They raised $80! What a blessing!
~ for continued support of Gold Network of East Texas as we have made the difficult decision to convert this year’s Tyler Gold Run to a Virtual Race. We just have to err on the side of caution as we face the unknown, especially as we serve immune compromised kids. The BEST part about the run being Virtual, is that ANYONE can participate from ANYWHERE! If you are local, we will have a pickup to give out medals and T-shirts, but if you are farther away, we can mail it to you! I encourage you to prayerfully consider registering, because our HERO kids and their families need your help more than ever. Unfortunately, #cancerisntcanceled. Every 3 minutes another family hears the life-shattering words “your child has cancer.” Kids all over East Texas and the world are taking chemotherapy every day, spending their childhood in and out of hospitals, and dealing with long term side effects from the toxic treatments used to save their lives. And 1 out of every 5 children diagnosed with cancer will not survive, leaving a gaping hole in a family that will never ever be the same. That’s why we created Gold Network of East Texas: to support families impacted by childhood cancer during their darkest days and then every day afterward. Once a hero, always a hero. You can register or donate at www.tylergoldrun.com
Today I am grateful for a successful three days of school down, and for a peaceful weekend with my Loves back home. It did feel good to have some of the old familiar routines that added margin to each day, and for the first time in as long as I can remember, a weekend that actually felt like a weekend. I am grateful that I don’t have to have all the answers, because I am held by the One Who Does.
Wherever you are, whatever highs or lows you are walking through, He is there. May we rest in that. May we rest in Him.
Thanks for giving thanks with me.
“When I said, “My foot is slipping,” your unfailing love, Lord, supported me. When anxiety was great within me, your consolation brought me joy.” (Psalms 94:18-19)
“Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen, since what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.” (2 Corinthians 4:16-18)
~ for God’s mercy. I limped to Him last week (and every day since then) and He has lovingly held me and encouraged me and let me just be His child without all (or ANY of) the answers.
~ for an exciting new adventure for Colton. After years of working in the food service industry, this week he started his first “grown up job,” as a superintendent for a commercial construction company. He’s got a new uniform, his own business cards, and has already started traveling out of town for a large project. He has already learned so much in his first week, and has been eager to share details from his days with us. He is so excited about this big step, and we are so proud of him!
~ and a big next step for Carson Grace as well: we moved her back to ETBU for her sophomore year of college. New apartment-style dorm, new roommates, and a fresh new enthusiasm for her classes after the abrupt end of her freshman year. We got her stuff all moved in despite a sudden downpour, and her room is cozy and organized. As always, it was hard to say goodbye, but we know she’s right where she needs to be. Since she left, we have chatted every day, and this morning we all enjoyed watching her lead worship with one of her professors at his church via a LIVE broadcast. She is excited for her first day of classes tomorrow!
~ the mixed blessing of having Carson Grace back at school means I once again have my beautiful work space (her now empty bedroom) for Giddyup & Whoa painting. I love that room, the crisp white walls and gleaming natural light. It’s just a space that inspires me. We’ve had some lovely pieces to work on lately. All the kids have taken turns painting in there with me, as well as some rousing games of UNO and charades.
~ for a succulent roasted sheet pan dinner: BBQ chicken, quartered potatoes, and green beans.
~ for the great honor and privilege of Gold Network of East Texas being chosen as a charity beneficiary of the Fresh 15. The race took place back in March the week before the country shut down, and Brookshire’s Grocery Company held a Virtual Check Presentation this week. So thankful to be in the company of the finest and most respected nonprofits in our area.
~ for the perfect mouthwateringly tart sweetness of a cherry sour candy.
~ for 99.9% school supplies ready to go for all 6 kids. Especially considering A) as of Monday I had not purchased ONE ITEM and B) I did not have to set one foot in a store. Online shopping, I love you!
~ for the kindest people that the Lord has braided into our lives. It is no secret that the question facing nearly every family in America is whether or not to send their children to school. And Josh and I have wrestled day and night over our options. We have prayed. We have made lists of pros and cons. We have prayed. We have sought council. We have prayed. We have been still. We have prayed. And prayed and prayed and prayed. Ultimately, FOR US (and the most important distinction I want to stress is that EVERY FAMILY is doing their VERY BEST to make the best choice for THEIR CHILDREN…and that will mean something different to each of them. NO JUDGMENT!) we have made the decision to send our kids back to their school. And let me tell you, our kids are EXCITED! They are chomping at the bit to get back to their school and their teachers and classmates. Their eagerness and loyalty to their school has helped soothe our uncertainties at least a little. But it still is a weighty decision that I have continued to struggle with. BUT GOD. One day this week, our principal called to check in on our decision. I heard the words came out of my mouth, “We are planning to send them in person,” (as opposed to doing virtual learning from home). As soon as I spoke, I realized it was the first time I had spoken those words aloud, and I burst into tears on the phone. At that moment, our principal, my friend, became to pray for me right then. She prayed for God’s peace and grace to flood my heart, for protection for each of our children, and for wisdom to make the best decisions we can for our family. Her kindness and grace met me in that moment, and my weary heart was encouraged. I can’t say I’m past my concerns, or even that I am confident that we’ve made the right choice. I don’t even know that I can single out a particular ACTUAL FEAR that is plaguing me. Just that nothing feels safe or “normal” or familiar or easy. But I am freshly reminded of why we LOVE the community that has been our home for 16 years. They know us. They know our kids. They’ve seen us through fostering, through adopting, through cancer. They have rallied around us and prayed for us when we were tossed from one storm to the next. I am NOT thrilled with the prospect of sending my kids back out into a group setting with so many unknowns, but I AM CONFIDENT that they are going into an environment where they are loved and seen and that everyone on every level is covering every aspect with prayer.
This is a big week of dropping off supplies, meeting teachers, and for Kora and Samantha, touring a brand new school. Tomorrow is the first time tiptoeing out of the quarantine bubble as we start the precursory steps. The official first day of school is Wednesday. Since March, we have been home. Together. With the exception of an hour here or there, I haven’t been away from my kids. And believe it or not, I’m not impatiently waiting to boot them out of the house for some “peace and quiet.” After months of keeping them safely at arms’ reach, I can’t even wrap my mind around dropping all my babies off and driving away. Especially after daily temperature scans and with masks as a normal school supply. Ok, I’m starting to hyperventilate again, need to refocus my heart. It’s a big week and the kids are excited to meet their teachers and see their friends. I am excited to see God’s hand at work in the midst of chaos and uncertainty.
And what in the world am I going to do with Hurricane Tatum K?
Thank you for all who have been praying for us. And for all of you moms, dads, cancer families, educators, administrators, doctors, nurses, first responders…I am praying for you, too. Lord, help guide us to the best choices for each of our families and also help us to respond to people who think similarly AND differently WITH KINDNESS AND GRACE. We all just want to get through this season the best we can. God is still on His throne where He has always been. His plan is still good, and I trust Him with my life and the lives of my children.
I’m back to praying two prayers over and over:
“Not my will, but Yours, Lord.” And “Jesus come.”
Thanks for giving thanks with me.
“The LORD your God in your midst, The Mighty One, will save; He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing.”” (Zephaniah 3:17)
“Your love is deep, Your love is high. Your love is long, Your love is wide. Your love is deeper than my view of grace Higher than this worldly place. Longer than this road I travel. Wider than the gap You fill…” “Your Love is Deep” by Jami Smith
“Waymaker, miracle worker Promise keeper, light in the darkness My God, that is who You are” “Waymaker” by Sinach
~ first and foremost, for a WONDERFUL clinic appointment on Wednesday, and the report that Sawyer REMAINS CANCER FREE! GLORY TO THE LORD!!! HE IS FAITHFUL!The fear never ever goes away, there is always a heaviness that comes with the appointment as we wait for the best or the worst news.This was the second time for Sawyer to be seen by the ACE unit (After Cancer Experience).The new doctor we see, Dr. Cindy, is great. She still getting to know us and has been so wonderful and patient putting up with our, (or shall I say MY) fears and hangups.But best of all is seeing Dr. Winick.Oh how we love that woman!I met her the very first day in the ER the day Sawyer was diagnosed.I will never forget her kind, gravely serious face.When you connect with someone in the midst of the darkest day of your life, it is not a bond that is easily broken.Ever since that first day, she was the one I would look for.She was the one I wanted to get results from.She was the one I trusted the most.And when she says everything is all right with SaSa, I believe her.And I love that she REALLY LOVES Sawyer.He’s not just a patient – she truly delights in him.She loves his huge personality; she marvels at his wit and his intelligence.And that makes me love her all the more…
~ and for Sawyer’s incredible attitude and bravery.When I told him he wasn’t going to school, he jumped up and down and asked, “do I have a CLINIC APPOINTMENT!?!?”Who DOES THAT? And not only did he have to have his blood drawn, he actually had to have it drawn a SECOND TIME.He just hopped right in that chair like it was nothing.If you missed the Caringbridge update I posted Wednesday, you can read it here.
~ AND for the great news that the IGG levels they tested came back NORMAL!Sawyer’s body is making antibodies like God designed it to do, despite all he endured when he was a baby.BUT GOD!
~ thankful for Gina Sue.Gina started as my sister-in-law, and now she’s just plain MY SISTER.She has been my copilot, my “ride-or-die,” for most of the last two years.In the early days of Sawyer’s treatment, I used to do 90% of the clinic trips by myself.I had a routine and we were a well-oiled machine.But when I was about seven months pregnant with Tatum K, experiencing regular contractions while barreling down the interstate, it became pretty clear to me that it was no longer wise for me to do the traveling solo.Various friends made the trip with me, but it was usually Gina.I’ve never known someone more dedicated. Coming from Carthage, she gets up well before 3 AM to be ready to be at my house to leave at 6.And she will tell you herself – she is NOT a morning person!She handles Tatum K’s moods (and MINE) and has a backpack crammed with all the best snacks.And then after long day in Dallas, and doing ALL the driving there and back, she drives another hour back home. I am so grateful for her help and fantastic company.I always come away encouraged.
~I’m also thankful that Carson Grace got a good, fresh dose of that Gina-flavored-encouragement this weekend (with a healthy helping of Justin and Grandmommy thrown in)!She left school for the weekend to spend the night in Carthage, and then went to Potlatch, Carthage’s annual fall city festival where Justin was showing his pristinely restored classic Ford truck.Not only did she enjoy the fellowship, BBQ, and the car show – she was asked to be the Trophy Girl, got to present Uncle Justin with a trophy, AND was awarded a trophy HERSELF at the end!Such a fun day full of great memories!
~ for a fun, easy makeover from my Trash Week treasures.Could my salvaged chairs have turned out any cuter??
~ for a perfect day to have Cousin Emmett!The weather this week has been GLORIOUS, and we had a beautiful fall walk.
~ for a fun Homecoming week. The Littles enjoyed their part of the festivities, Crazy Sock Day.
And Cooper had a great time all week.I was thankful to SURVIVE the making of the Homecoming mum (seriously people. I’m from the North. I had never seen anything like the phenomenon that is Texas football season/Homecoming/mums!It is like another planet!This was SO NOT my thing, but I figured it out, THANKFULLY!). Coop had a great time at the football game, and then on Saturday, he and his date were just the cutest.They are just great friends, and went with a group of friends, so there was absolutely no pressure.Just a fun evening of food, friends, and dancing.How is my Coopy a Freshman going to a DANCE WITH A GIRL!?!?!
~ for a fresh batch of new Giddyup & Whoa sign builds for next week’s Vintage and Co’s Fall Gresham Barn Sale!I was so blessed to be invited back, and I have a ton of ideas for signs!The sale is October 23-26; check them out on Facebook and if you are local, it’s a sale you WON’T WANT TO MISS!!!
~ for a remarkable last-minute surge of donations for the Children’s Hospital Prize Closet.Last week I was so disappointed. We were way WAY behind from last year‘s donations, and even though I knew we had lots of toys that would be a blessing, I just always hope to keep growing, bigger and better.But, I kept begging on social media, and y’all responded in a big way!Another amazing GNET Hero, Aileen, a sophomore in high school, saved money she received at her quinceanera to purchase toys for the closet!!I’m so proud of her!!!
Thanks to your overwhelming generosity, we received more than $700 in donations JUST THIS WEEK, and Paula and I had a blast spending all of it on prizes for the most deserving kids in the world! Every time we got more money donated: another trip to the store! Tomorrow is delivery day, so I will reveal the grand total then.Be watching on Facebook and Instagram!(Blog followers will have to wait until next Sunday!)
Life continues, fast and furious.There’s never time to catch my breath.How can a quarter of the school year already be over!?My babies grow up more every single day, and I see a face I scarcely recognize looking back at my from the mirror.Mercy.But I’m so reminded, GOD IS FAITHFUL.HE WAS.HE IS.AND HE WILL BE.Everything around me seems to change at lightning speed.But my Father is constant and sure.His Word is alive and His promises are true.And no matter what my anxiety tells me, no matter what I FEEL LIKE…no matter my fears or control issues or insecurities… I know that I know that I know that He’s never going to let go of meand that His plan for me is good.And His plan for you is good, too. I hope that encourages someone this week.I need to remind myself every single day.Don’t lose heart.He sees you.
Thanks for giving thanks with me.
“She gave this name to the Lord who spoke to her: “You are the God who sees me,” for she said, “I have now seen the One who sees me.”” Genesis 16:13 NIV
“The Lord is trustworthy in all he promises and faithful in all he does. The Lord upholds all who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. The eyes of all look to you, and you give them their food at the proper time. You open your hand and satisfy the desires of every living thing. The Lord is righteous in all his ways and faithful in all he does. The Lord is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.”Psalms 145:13-18 NIV
~ to be DONE BACK TO SCHOOL SHOPPING.It only took me 3,647,447,262 trips to 78,226 stores to get what everyone needed.
~ for our wonderful, kind teachers at Grace Community School, and how thrilled each of the children are with the classroom they were placed in.I love the aroma of eagerness and hope at the beginning of the school year.There is just so much promise: new friends, new skills, new adventures.There are few things that thrill my kids more than strapping on a brand spankin’ new pair of tennis shoes and a 86 pound bulging backpack to go see friends they have missed all summer and meet their teachers.
~ for a good first day of school.Everyone popped out of bed with a grin, gobbled up fresh baked banana muffins for breakfast, and doodled up in their favorite outfit to start off their new year. (I may have chosen Sawyer’s shirt…) We read our morning devotional, like always, and prayed over our day and our family and our teachers, like always.Josh headed off to take Cooper to his first day of high school while I walked into the elementary school with 6 of my babies.And walked out with just one.I’m infinitely grateful for a school filled with people who love Jesus and love our family, and who give a whole lot of grace to this mama who has a very hard time letting go.But God.
~ and as if that were not enough, Wednesday was the day to drive Carson Grace back to ETBU, this time for good.Tatum K and I made the drive with her, and when we arrived, the dorm was HOPPING!When we moved her into her dorm before her mini-mester 2 weeks ago, there were just a handful of students on campus.But this week was Tiger Camp, ETBU’s Freshman Welcome Week.All of Carson Grace’s suite-mates were there, and it was great to meet them and their parents. I can already tell they are a really special group.We did the few last updates to her room, went on a quick grocery run, and a hurried Subway lunch, as I had to rush back to Tyler in time to pick up Littles from school.This meant I didn’t get to participate in the parent part of Tiger Camp, attending the first Chapel service of the year with Carson Grace.But I know God’s timing is better than mine, and I trust that it was best for me to get on the road when I did.Oh, it was so hard to drive away.I could tell though, that she was excited and ready.Much more so than the first time we dropped her off, all alone in the dorm.This time her room and the campus were already familiar, and she was surrounded by classmates ready to dive in right beside her.Hard hard for Mama, not so much for my girl.And that’s how it’s supposed to be, praise God.
She has sent lots of pictures since Wednesday: scavenger hunts, team challenges, and community service projects.She’s making lots of friends and looks like she’s loving it.She and her camp group went to a local church this morning together, and classes start bright and early in the morning.Proud of her.But I sure do miss my girl.I’ve spent a lot of time in her room this week, thinking about her, praying for her.(I’m not crying, YOU’RE crying….)
~ for traditions.If you know me, you know I’m big on traditions.Every year on the first day of school, we go to our very favorite snow cone shack in Tyler, Shivers.Tatum K shared her piña colada snow cone with me…she loved her “pink-alada”!
~ for kind friends.Thoughtful friends.For old and new friends.For truth-telling-even-when-it-hurts friends.For tried-and-true, gone-through-the-ringer, here-for-the-mountains-and-the-valleys friends.
~ for steady Giddy up & Whoa work.I truly love to paint, and our little home business is such a blessing to our family.And I needed the diversion.Thursday was even harder than Wednesday with the kids gone.On the first day, taking Carson Grace to Marshall took the whole day.I was too busy to think about anything. (WHICH WAS MERCY).Thursday was a different story.It was a different kind of quiet.Not a TRUE quiet, because Tatum K is a wild little fireball and a constant chatterbox. I know this year will be a sweet time with just my Tater Tot at home. But for now, the empty house is echoey.Too much space.As much as my Tribe drives me crazy and I’m always exhausted with their questions and their squabbles and their needs…they are MY PEOPLE.And I miss them when they’re gone.So anyway, it was a blessing to have 5 sign orders that needed my attention during Tatum’s naptime.And I’m pleased to say I got them all done!
~ for a good evening and meal with Colton.The Littles were thrilled to swim with him and climb all over him.Always good to spend some time with my boy.
~ for a nice start to our Gold Network Toy Drive for the prize closet at Children’s Hospital.A group of sweet ladies all went out and purchased nearly 100 toys and donated them in honor of one of their friend’s birthdays!What a great idea!Last year we donated more than 1400 toys to Children’s.We are collecting toys through the month of September.
~ for excitement brewing over all our upcoming Gold Network events.August 29 is Go Gold Tyler, our annual Childhood Cancer Awareness night on the Tyler Downtown Square.I’ve been reaching out to our cancer families and have been thrilled by the overwhelmingly positive response!It is so special to have all these Hero families together.And then Tyler Gold Run is coming up September 21.For our big 5 year celebration (how can it be 5 years!?) we are thrilled to have added a 10k route and moved to a new, larger park.I am always amazed at how our friends and family and the community rise up in support of all these brave kids and their families.Please consider being a part of these special events, or donating toward the cause.
~and this is just INCREDIBLE! One of our Hero families has a cousin who is an amazing artist. She created an original watercolor painting and has DONATED IT FOR AUCTION TO GOLD NETWORK!!! This priceless painting takes my breath away. Please check out the auction and bid or donate if you feel led. The auction is open until August 29. Click here for details.
~for good baseball memories with my Love.Josh is one of the biggest Texas Rangers fans that has ever lived, and he has passed this passion on to his family.I learned early in our marriage that if I was going to have any quality time with my husband from April until October, I needed to learn to speak baseball.So I asked a few questions, and it was his greatest delight to teach me the ins and the outs of the game.So this week, it was very special to glue ourselves to the TV screen to watch a momentous milestone for our all time favorite player, Josh Hamilton, as he was inducted into the Texas Rangers Hall of Fame.Josh is one of the greatest talents to have ever played the game, but we love him because of his story.He has battled drug and alcohol addiction for his entire career, and although he found salvation in Jesus Christ, he has continued to fall back into those self-destructive patterns.But seeing him back on the field, hugging his old teammates, and hearing his bold and honest speech that gave all glory to the God who continued/continues to love him in the midst of his failures….we cried our eyes out.It. Was. Awesome.He closed his 14 minute speech with these words of encouragement for when we get knocked down, “Don’t you dare stay down. The God of the universe sent His Son to die so that we have the right to GET BACK UP IN JESUS!”
Our friend Harold needs your prayers.He was allowed to go home from the hospital Wednesday, only to have hydrocephalus symptoms return Thursday, causing his parents to rush Harold back to Dallas for his FIFTH surgery.Please pray for healing and wisdom for the team of doctors treating him.And for grace and strength for his precious family.Thank you for continuing to lift up the parents and family of sweet Lucas, who went to heaven last week.Someone I love is recovering from a dreadful injury, and 3 family members are battling cancer.So many people hurting.Oh how I hate cancer.Jesus come….
Friends, life is hard. It is hard and good and beautiful and horrible and excruciating and glorious.Live well.Love large.Give freely.Forgive.See people.Pray for one another.Share Jesus.
Thanks for giving thanks with me.
““A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.””John 13:34-35
“Therefore, since we have a great high priest who has ascended into heaven, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold firmly to the faith we profess. For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weaknesses, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are—yet he did not sin. Let us then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”Hebrews 4:14-16 NIV
~ for creative get-out-of-bed excuses.“Ma-a-a-ma, I need to ask you something?Do chickens fly?”
~for Giddyup & Whoa orders that come right on time.Every single order is a blessing of provision.
~for decadent French toast with orange zest and a crispy crust of cinnamon sugar.I had a new recipe, and it was a resounding hit with the Tribe.
~for the tender hearts of my children. We did not tell them about the senseless tragedies of last weekend. But they are incredibly observant and quickly noticed all the flags lowered to half-staff.When I briefly told them what had happened, they were aghast and IMMEDIATELY asked if we could pray aloud together in the car.First they prayed for the grieving families of the victims, and then began to pray that God would touch the hearts of the shooters, “that they would come to know You Lord, and that they would be sorry for what they have done.”
~for such a special surprise: my sweet friend Meredith blessed Sawyer with one of her impeccably hand-sewn minky puppies!Check out the gold childhood cancer ribbon!If you haven’t checked out My Minky Co, you need to!Thank you Meredith!
~for back-to-school shopping.It’s hard for me to say I’m thankful for this.Not gonna lie. School supplies, shoes, and clothes for six in school is no joke.Just the magnitude this year’s number is intimidating, but sometimes brave is what you are when you don’t have a choice. We tackled the stores as a wild and boisterous unit.My kids opened every shoebox in every store.They showed me every pencil that was ever made.They were pretty good about not “asking” (they had been severely warned) but instead they just exclaimed over and over, “look at this one Mama!Isn’t this one cute? Isn’t this one sweet?This one is awesome!I love this!”I had warned them, don’t ask for everything you see. However, I had forgotten to specify, “don’t show me and describe every detail of everything you see.”School starts Wednesday…I’d estimate that I am 68% done with the supply shopping.And that I am 143% READY to be done.It’s not that I want my kiddos out of the house, it’s just the progression of the season.They are all ready to be done at home and back to their friends.Instinctively they crave the structure and margin of the school setting, even if the appreciation won’t stay with them long.
~for grace for new seasons.I don’t think I can express to you how different my life is going to be with Carson Grace gone to college.She’s my babysitter.My ONLY babysitter.And I have become accustomed to running my errands by myself.I just don’t take my people into stores.I just don’t.A couple of my children have literally been in a store, ANY store, like three times in their lives.It’s just one of those things, that if I didn’t have to go with an entourage, I didn’t.Well now, that luxury is over for the most part.Six little people at the grocery store.Six little people shopping for shoes.Six little people in the return line at Walmart.It’s just a different season.But you know what… WE SURVIVED! I’m not trying to say it was relaxing and poetic and my favorite way to spend my time.But nobody backflipped off the shelves, and I didn’t lose any of them.So I’m going to call it a win.I think I’m going to be getting a lot of use out of my “big girl panties” this year.
~thankful to have my girl back, even if it’s only briefly.Carson Grace finished up her mini-mester class at ETBU, and I drove with the Tribe to pick her up on Friday. Everyone was thrilled to see her, and excited to get to check out her new room at the dorm.She goes back for real on Wednesday.I’m thankful for the Lord’s kindness to allow us to have a more gradual “letting go.”
~for a fun night at Meet the Cougars.At this yearly fall school event, each high school athletic team is highlighted to get people hyped for the school year.Very excited to see Cooper’s #19 jersey come out of the football tunnel.He’s so excited about his freshman year.Can’t wait to watch him play!
~for Sawyer’s fun time at his Kindergarten picnic.He got to see old friends and meet some new ones, and went on a scavenger hunt on the school playground.So proud of my brave boy and how excited he is for kindergarten. Here come the tears again.I don’t know what I’m gonna do without him every day. He just makes life so bright.I hope I never outgrow the utter awe I feel when I look at him, knowing all he has overcome.
~for God’s Word spoken straight to the heart.Sometimes it just pierces in such a powerful way.The message this morning was on sanctification.Being redeemed, made holy, and set apart.Brother Alvin, our dear friend and visiting missionary from Honduras, referenced offering someone a cup of water in a filthy glass.I long to be set apart for God. Sanctified by His blood so that He can use me for His purposes.But how often I come as a dirty vessel.With unforgiveness.With my own agenda.With short-sighted expectations of my Father’s ability.I long to set an example for my children of being set apart.Called higher.Called to be in the world but not of it.To love with the sacrificial supernatural love of Christ.How much more useful we are when we do it God‘s way.And what a stumbling block we are when we insist on our own way.The message hit me right between the eyes today.Lord, cleanse me and sanctify me as a vessel of honor.
Friends, sweet Lucas went to be with Jesus yesterday.Now he is whole and healed and forever free from cancer.And now his family is broken-hearted to have to live without him.His suffering is over, and theirs has intensified.Please, please pray.Our lives will go on…theirs will never EVER be the same again.And while they do have the blessed assurance that they will see their boy again one day, today…today there is unspeakable pain.
Love one another well.Hold tight to your people and don’t skip the extra story and the 14th snuggle.Forgive when you don’t think you should have to, and give more than you think is necessary.Life is a vapor. You won’t regret it.
Thanks for giving thanks with me.
“Consecrate yourselves and be holy, because I am the Lord your God.” Leviticus 20:7
My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth. As you sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world. For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified.”John 17:15-19
I should have expected it. Last week I boldly proclaimed to the world how thankful I am. How thankful I am for my lively mess of a family and the perfectly imperfect.Why should it surprise me that Monday morning I’d be hit on all sides with utter chaos: squalling siblings, mouthy teens, and a maniacal 2 year old terrorist.I was attacked full force from every direction.And man, I fell right smack off my thankful mountain.I know that’s real life: highs and lows and not-so-pretty-or-poetic emotions. BUT GOD. Oh how thankful I am that God doesn’t turn His back on me every time I fail.And that His goodness is not contingent on my faithfulness.WHAT A MIGHTY GOD WE SERVE!
But when all is said and done, He gives me the grace to get back up when I fall on my face.I get to tell my kids I’m sorry andwe all get a do-over. New mercies every morning.And every week.
I am thankful:
~ for more end of school fun.Our final FINAL day of school was Wednesday!It is surreal to see Sawyer completing his first year of school.I don’t take these “firsts and lasts” for granted.Every time he reaches another milestone, I never fail to see that frail, white little baby.BUT GOD!He knew this day was coming even when all we could see was death in every direction.Thank you Jesus for the last five years!And we will be thankful for all the rest you will give us!I pray Sawyer lives to be a strong, healthy, old old man who never tires of telling the story of how Jesus healed-ed him.
~ for nail polish remover.I used a whole bottle to clean up Tatum K and the carpet where she painted her “Pretty toes Mama!I MESSY!”
~ for my 2 kiddos recognized for Perfect Attendance!Way to go Kora and Gavin!
~for the remarkable kindness and generosity of friends.
~ for good news.Our friend Mason got his port removed after completing leukemia treatment, Baby Lucas got wonderful news from his oncologist, and sweet Georgia is home from her latest stay in the hospital.God, You are so good.Thank you, faithful prayer warriors, for praying; please keep lifting up all these precious families.
~ for at least a couple lazy days.No alarms to set, no plans on the calendar. We enjoyed our walks, kids swam in the icy pool until their lips turn blue, and we laughed as Bear eagerly dove in after them, showing off his swimming skills.
~for Carson Grace and the Cougars safe trip down to Houston for their next softball playoff game.They battled through and played their best, but this time didn’t come away with the win.But what a great season!
~ for the way all my kids love music.They are always singing along with the radio behind me in the car, making up songs, or singing on their own at home.This week a favorite came on, “I’m a Child of God,” and Sawyer said, “Mama!I just love this song so much!I just HAVE to Praise Him!”I can only imagine how this blesses the Father’s heart.
~ for the eagerlyanticipated, fast andfuriousarrival of my latestBEAUTIFULNIECE, Josey Dean! What a little sugar!!!
And Saturday was the biggest day; a day of so much joy but also bittersweet tears. My girl, my Carson Grace, my heart.How can my baby be graduating high school?I remember picking out her first day of school clothes from the toddler department.I remember the tiny wooden stool that her teacher had built for her because her little legs dangled from the desk and couldn’t reach the floor. I remember crying as she graduated from Kindergarten, then from 5th grade, then 8th.I blinked. Tiny crocs and Mary Jane’s were replaced by Vans and impossibly high heels.My memory hasn’t faded from her baby days, because all I have to do is look at Tatum K, her carbon copy. Saturday, my beautiful girl put on that cap and gown and proudly received her diploma.She fought for it: high school wasn’t easy for her on any level.But she did it, and we are so proud.We even had the excitement of a tornado warning and mandatory evacuation in the middle of the ceremony, but she made it!We ended the evening with burgers and watermelon and friends crowded in the kitchen, celebrating our girl.
~ and then a wonderful baby shower for my precious friends Chris and Lindsay, as they prepare their hearts and home for their baby boy on the way.They are such treasures, and I am so ready to watch them step into the role they were MADE FOR as Mama and Daddy!
As you may well imagine, it’s slightly terrifying to face being home with all these kiddos for the summer.I’m so ridiculously outnumbered.But thankfully they haven’t figured that out yet.I am trying to find a balance between high hopes and realistic expectations for the upcoming weeks: lots of swimming, walks, trips to the library, and some good healthy brain exercise.We’re gonna eat popsicles and ride bikes and Cooper’s going to teach me how to flip on the trampoline.And I’m gonna love my babies the very best I can.I’m gonna soak up these last precious weeks of having Carson Grace home before she leaves for college.I’m going to press into Jesus.I’m going to pray with my kids and play with my kids.I’M GONNA FINISH SCRAPING THOSE BEAMS.It’s going to be a glorious mess, but we are going to do it together.
Thank you for giving thanks with me.
“Lord, you have been our dwelling place throughout all generations. Before the mountains were born or you brought forth the whole world, from everlasting to everlasting you are God.” Psalm 90:1-2
“Satisfy us in the morning with your unfailing love, that we may sing for joy and be glad all our days. Make us glad for as many days as you have afflicted us, for as many years as we have seen trouble. May your deeds be shown to your servants, your splendor to their children. May the favor of the Lord our God rest on us; establish the work of our hands for us— yes, establish the work of our hands.” Psalm 90:14-17
“My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.” Psalm 73:26
Why do I start every Sunday gratitude with the sentence… “Wow! What a busy week!”????With a family this size, I think we can rest confidently that it’s usually going to be busy.I just need to accept that fact.But whether you have one kid or 21, the end of school season can get wild. So buckle up, this post is about to make you tired…
For “Graces Races,” our GCS end-of-school field day for each grade. Monday 1st grade, Tuesday – 3rd grade, Wednesday – 2nd grade, Thursday – 4th grade.And I made it to each one.Granted, a couple in time for the snowcone finale…But at least my kiddos knew I was there.They all had such a great time with their friends doing balloon and scooter and gunnysack relays.The elementary children will have their last day of school this coming Wednesday. Where did this schoolyear go?
~ for great softball game/senior night for Carson Grace.So proud to take the field with our beautiful girl and celebrate the end of her high school career.Then the Cougar girls played a tremendous game and walked away with their first playoff win!
~for a great birthday dinner celebrating Colton.His schedule last week didn’t permit, but this week we had a tasty meal of his choice: crescent chicken, sweet potato fries, and yellow cake with chocolate icing.
~for another great choir concert, this time for Cooper and the Junior High.Such a talented group of students!
~ Of course the highlight of this week was Wednesday, which was Sawyer‘s quarterly Oncology Clinic visit.Bloodwork confirmed that he is CANCER FREE! Glory to God!This was Sawyer‘s first visit on the ACE unit (After Cancer Experience), otherwise known as the Survivors Unit. This is truly a miraculous milestone we never dared dream we would see.You can read my Caringbridge post with full details from the day here.
~ I’m thankful for God’s protection on the drive, and I’m very thankful I didn’t know how dangerous the storms were until AFTER I was safely home!I know I would have panicked.My back hurt for 2 days from clutching the steering wheel.
~ for Nurse Appreciation Week. Our nurses are our family, and we love them passionately.No amount of words or gifts can measure the impact they make on the lives they touch. We ❤️ Nurses!
~ for Carson Grace’s Senior Awards Assembly.How incredible to see 100% of her class has been accepted into various colleges, from Texas to Alabama to Illinois.The Admissions Counselor from ETBU came from Marshall to present Carson Grace with her Academic and Christian Leadership Scholarships.And that same day, she took her very last final, and is officially DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL!Just unreal.It was a hard fought battle to get her to this point, andshe’s wrestled through a lot over the past couple years, but she made it, and we are SO PROUD!
If you’re still with me, are you tired yet?Oh no, we’re not done yet. Not even close!
~ thankful for Cooper’s 8th Grade Year End Assembly.The students heard from each of their amazing teachers (there really is a unique and passionate breed of teacher who chooses to minister to Jr. High students).They reminded the kids how loved they are by the Lord, and that they are so valuable to the Kingdom.The teachers, coaches, and faculty spoke with so much enthusiasm and heart, it was incredibly moving, and I’m freshly reminded how grateful I am that Cooper has been loved so well by this faculty.I pray for him as he steps into High School next fall, that he will walk confidently in who he is, and stay the bright, one-of-a-kind individual he’s always been.Oh, and he is THRILLED to be done with school for the year.
~ for 2 fun end of year parties done.5 to go.From trampoline parks to the rock gym, they have a blast with their friends.
~ for a whirlwind Saturday: Carson Grace traveled with her team to Rockwall for Softball Playoff game, Cougars DOMINATED for another victory, and then turned around and rushed back to Tyler in the rain so the girls could get ready for PROM!Seriously!!??What a day!Thankfully there was just enough time, and Carson Grace transformed in her room from a softball champion, emerging as a stunning vision in her ballgown.At the country club where the dance was held, the Senior class and their dates gathered to take a group photo, and the emotions got really real.It seemed like yesterday that all these kids were posing for class pictures on the playground.Or on a fire truck. Gone are the pigtails and missing teeth and skinned up knees with Disney bandaids.Instead they were beautiful grown young men and ladies.They were poised and stunning and were arrayed in their finest. And they took my breath away. Somebody please stop time.
And now that I’ve survived this marathon week of mayhem, it’s Mother’s Day. I’ve earned some stripes this week for sure.Mother’s Day can stir up such varied emotions for different people:longing-to-be mothers, first-time mothers, children who have lost their mothers and mothers who have lost their children, mamas with strained relationships, and those who have chosen not to be mothers. Not everybody gets breakfast in bed and a new candle.
At this moment at my house, there’s marinated fajita steak on the grill, and ALL MY KIDS ARE HOME.There are saturated towels, clothes, and shoes strewn all over the patio and three dripping mermaid tails hanging on the fence.Yelling kids on the trampoline, yelling kids chasing a soggy mess of a dog, kids staring at their phones, kids cracking up over Snapchat filters.My legs need shaving, my grey needs colored, my floor needs mopped, and my bed’s not made.And I will be 100% honest and say I usually don’t fully appreciate my life.I am short-temperedand impatient and overwhelmed.Too many questions, too much laundry, too many squabbles and the sippy cup is always lost.But today.Today I have been so thankful.Yes, my plate is full, but I see my cup that overflows with blessing.My house is a mess, but it’s bursting at the seams with the people I love.I have no idea why God has given me so many hearts to be responsible for, and most days the task completely terrifies me.I am VASTLY UNQUALIFIED. But I know that the confidence in myself that is lacking is ECLIPSED by the confidence I have in Him.He gave me all these babies.I don’t know why I am so blessed, but all I can do is thank Him and do my best every day.And when my best isn’t good enough, His grace will meet me there.I’m pretty much the most blessed mama on the planet.
Oh, and today I got to take a nap in my hammock.
Thank you for giving thanks with me.
“All your children shall be taught by the LORD, And great shall be the peace of your children.”Isaiah 54:13
~ for one of my favorite weeks of the year:Bulky Trash Pickup Week.For years it’sbeen one of my greatest joys to cruise the streets of Tyler checking out the piles of castoffs, looking for “treasure” amidst the broke toilets and soggy mattresses.I love the oddities I come across: the 8 foot headless toy soldier, Captain Mike pedal car, and sometimes what looks like an entire household emptied out.But there were also a few great finds: some good frames, darling rattan chairs, an awesome tabletop that will make a fabulous sign, and a terrific study little table.Josh is the best sport in the world – he HATES this week because of all the crap I drag home, but he puts up with me, even picking up the pieces I can’t fit into the bus (if I BEG).But some items don’t pass his inspection and end right back on our curb.But I love the thrill of the hunt, and the Littles all help by scanning the curbs for “treasure piles.”
~I’m thankful for the rain. It seems like we’re getting way too much rain, flooding, not enough sunshine…but the fact is, God is sending us rain.So I guess that means we need rain.And I’m trying to learn to be thankful for whatever He gives me. Even if what He gives doesn’t make sense to me.So I’m choosing to be thankful for the rain. My babies help me appreciate it because they find such joy.
~ for a surreal milestone.My baby boy, the one who made me a mama, turned 20 this week.I still can’t wrap my mind around Colton being 20. years. old.I will never forget his traumatic delivery or how terrified Josh and I were to bring him home.We had NO CLUE what we were doing, and I think we have continued to feel like that for most of the last 20 years.But we all survived it all, we all learned through it all, and we love each other like crazy.Happy birthday Colton, can’t wait to see where God takes you!
~for growth opportunities, even the uncomfortable ones, the embarrassing ones.I’m thankful for the traffic that never moves more slowly than when I’m in a hurry.I’m thankful for the accidents that I don’t know about that He has shielded me from time and time again.I’m thankful for the things I wasn’t able to hurry up and get to.And I’m so thankful that One Greater than me is in charge.
~for parking lot picnics in between activities at the school.And I’m thankful that even if they don’t actually love it, my kids will eat a sandwich for dinner without complaining.
~ for teachers.It’s been teacher appreciation week at GCS and many other schools across the nation.And our teachers are outstanding!These dedicated servants love on my kids.They disciple my kids.They pray for my kids.All the kids. They are overworked and under paid.I’m so thankful for all the teachers we’ve had over the years, and the pieces of the puzzle they have been in the development of my children. Thank you, Jesus for our teachers!
~for a really special visit with a dear friend.Miss Robyn moved away about a year ago, and we have missed our spirited dinners and cultural outings that she has extended to our family over the years.So even a brief time of catching up over a meal was delightful! We love you Miss Robyn!
~ for a great two weeks of Football Spring Training for Cooper.He loves playing football and is PUMPED to play in High School next year!
~ for another bittersweet last with my girl: her last choir concert.As always, the talent and performances were unmatched.But everything feels different when it’s the last time.Hearing the beautifully melodious blending of voices as they sang, “The Lord bless you and keep you.The Lord lift His countenance upon you and give you peace…” I’ve heard Carson Grace and her choir-mates sing that more times than I can count over the years.But this time they were singing a prayer over one another.Praying a blessing over friends who are about to go their separate ways.Another hard season change. Enjoy the video here.
~ for my new birthday hammock, finally hung!We had to repaint our frame and clear out an overgrown tree before we could put it out, but now it is up and it’s SO CHARMING!I look forward to seeing kiddos snuggled up in it from my kitchen window, and maybe I’ll even get to lay in it myself one day!
~for the most fun birthday party!Sawyer was invited to the party of one of his sweet classmates at Half-pint Ponies and Petting Zoo!(Where he had his Make A Wish “You’re-Going-to-Hawaii” party).It was so awesome: sheep and goats to pet and brush; the fluffiest, softest bunny; tiny newborn baby pigs, and a “real life” unicorn to ride!Tatum K came along, and that girl was in her heyday!She marched around that barnyard in her cowboots, loving on all the animals and greeting them with, “Hi honey!”They had the best time!
~ for ONE. MORE. BEAM. DONE!!!(Only 5 more to go.) Just keep scraping, just keep scraping….
So it’s finally really Spring.I love Spring. Lots of rain, lots of green, fresh flowers everywhere.Such a busy season.Mercy Mama, is Spring a busy season at our house with the end of the year activities in full spring.Changing seasons is always bittersweet.In the middle of winter we long for the temperatures to rise and the green to emerge from its slumber.But when the heat sets in, and we are no longer enamored by the sweat on our brow (and the back of our neck and everywhere else), we look back longingly to the crisp cool of winter.So it is with the seasons of our lives. When we are raising babies, it feels like the sleepless nights will never end.Endless diapers, spit up rags, and too many days upon days without a shower.When our two-year-old is screaming for another cookie, our hearts yearn for tender baby snuggles.No matter what season we are in, we are usually looking wistfully backward or longingly forward.I have the unique opportunity to span so many seasons at once just within my Tribe: no babies any more, but I’ve got toddler, little kids, middle kids, preteens, teens, young adults.I should have a great perspective, mature and seasoned, and a realistic appreciation for each respective season.But man, I really don’t.I haven’t learned to appreciate each season, or that every season is going to be hard, and NO SEASON will not be busy.I STILL find myself simultaneously longing backward with some and straining forward with others.I know it’s the dance we do.I just want to learn from it all and be able to soak up the moments, the good with the hard, and EMBRACE them.Lord, help me stay in today.Hope for tomorrow, learn from yesterday, but LIVE IN TODAY.
Please keep praying for Georgia.She spiked a fever, had her first on-treatment ER visit, and is currently in-patient at Children’s, waiting for her counts to come back up.Thank you for covering this precious little girl and her family.
Happy Spring, friends.I pray you can embrace whatever season/seasons you are in.
“Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.”Romans 12:12
“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens: a time to be born and a time to die, a time to plant and a time to uproot, a time to kill and a time to heal, a time to tear down and a time to build, a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance, a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them, a time to embrace and a time to refrain from embracing, a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away, a time to tear and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak, a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace.” Ecclesiastes 3:1-8